Knittin' Kitten
Ooh I know the tightening thing! Another thing which helps send me to sleep (which I had totally forgotten about) is you shut your eyes and you go "I can see..." x3 (obviously your eyes are shut but you'll have a mental image of the room), then "I can feel..." x3, then "I can hear..." x3 and keep it all within the room. That works surprisingly well, unless you can't hear anything.
Another thing I was told to improve sleep was to make your bedroom just for sleeping, no distractions - although for me that's impossible; my room is where I live, it's where I have to do all my studying and sewing and watching TV.
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Yeah, I'm always surprised I'm not scared of it. Mostly it's my friends and it's just a bit bewildering - like "Why is Chaz here?! I'm sure he doesn't even know where he lives", but they're always just sat there talking. I did once dream that my dead nan was in my room, and that was a bit strange cause I was thinking "I know you're dead, so why are you here?" but I still wasn't scared.
Erm not sure but sounds like it, I have to have it in three parts.
I haven't had anything in a long time but my last experience was a blood test, and I had to be pinned down to the chair, it hurt so much I was crying and screaming and I fainted after. Andy's coming in with me, we were discussing options earlier - he could bite me on the other arm so I focussed more on that pain, or he could just distract me (although I always feel like I have to watch). And I'm trying to focus on what I'm gonna do after; definitely gonna get some chocolate or ice cream, maybe go to town and buy an amp if I can find one cheap enough, maybe go to the pub, or maybe just go back to Andy's so he can cheer me up ;) haha sorry.
I'm going in for the HPV vaccine tomorrow and I'm terrified. I have a phobia of needles and have avoided this at all costs as it's not mandatory, but I can only get it while I'm still 18 and I know I should...doesn't stop me wanting to run screaming. Andy's coming along to help me get through it and apparently the nurse is really nice so I'm hoping that I'm just worrying over nothing and this will be help me get over my fear...but I was looking up about the vaccine and like 44 women died shortly after getting it, and they say it's not *necessarily* linked but I'm still scared. And some women have got other forms of cancer straight after getting it. And some women have developed blood clots after, but only if they're on something which would already trigger it, like the contraceptive pill, WHICH I AM ON. And I'm scared that the needle's gonna break off in my arm or I'll get an air bubble and I don't want to die just yet, or at least not like this!
I go through stages of having messed up sleeping - at the moment I'm fine *touch wood* although a few nightmares are creeping back in. I've always talked in my sleep, mostly just mumbling but apparently the other night when I was at my boyfriend's I suddenly grabbed my ear and started shouting like it really hurt (I was asleep but it's quite possible - I have piercing infections so if he knocked it by accident I might have just been in pain while asleep) and then suddenly stopped shouting and was mumbling at him for ages before suddenly stopping and going "And then we had sex. And then we had sex." before going back to mumbling!
That's pretty much the worst I do around other people, but I go through periods where I have horrible nightmares; sometimes just flashes of dead bodies and blood and stuff like that, like a flashback from a horror film. I also have these weird dreams where I think someone is in my room and I'll sit up and talk to them and everything's fine, it's not scary or anything, and then I wake up and I'm sat in bed, often with the duvet wrapped around me (I sleep naked and my most common thought when someone in my room is "I can't let [insert name here] see me naked!"), and have even got up and put my dressing gown on a few times, once waking up as I was in the process of putting it on. It didn't scare me but it did mean I got very little sleep cause I was constantly waking up all night.
Lately it's just been a few dreams, like I dreamt the other night that my dad was telling me how worthless and pathetic I am, so I left the house, but found myself walking into the kitchen again, and every time I tried to leave I'd wind up back in my house with my father yelling at me. I woke up crying and shaking.
That sleep paralysis thing - I've had that a few times, and it's HORRIBLE. Although there are worse ones, which I've never had thank god but I know at least two people who have, which is this thing where you wake up and you either think an old woman is on your chest which is what's keeping you down, or you just see an old woman in your room. Andy had that and he said there was just this old woman at the end of the bed, and her mouth was open like she was screaming but he couldn't hear anything. I think that's terrifying. But yeah, not that uncommon - it's called Old Hag Attack or something.
Sorry, not much use, but you're not alone. I can't give any advice either as mine just come and go. One thing though - I have really nasty nightmares if I need the toilet in the night. I guess it's my body's way of not letting me wet myself or something, but yeah, I don't drink anything for half an hour before bed and go to the toilet a bunch of times, otherwise I won't make it through the night.
Oh that annoys me so much too Lala, when you stay up all night working on something then find out that just because someone else didn't do it you didn't have to. It's like you're getting punished for actually following the rules. I work so hard to get my work in on time and I know if I don't then I'm gonna get in trouble, but some people just get away with everything.
Mine is just a little one today, but I'm sick of being tired all the time. I just don't ever have the energy to do stuff any more.
Michelle and Butterfly Night - as soon as I broke up with Tim his friends went after me. They always hit on me and stuff when I was with him but I thought it was a friendly thing. But yeah, suddenly all these guys were asking if they could come visit me!
I went to the doctor's today and they're going to refer me for physiotherapy to sort my back out, thank god, and they think the waiting list might not be too long. I also talked about my breasts thing, and the doctor was lovely about it and she's going to get the breast clinic to check me out as a preliminary thing, then they're going to apply for funding for me to get surgery. So fingers crossed! I don't want to tell anyone though until I'm definitely going to get it done, and I imagine I'll be on a waiting list for a while but if I can get it done on the NHS it means I probably won't have to wait AS long.
Actually, I was in love with my first boyfriend when I was 12/13, and I still hold that to this day - it most definitely wasn't lust, he kinda pushed me into all that stuff. I maintain it's possible but yeah, a healthy sense of scepticism is always a good idea.
I know how you feel Jessica, all the way through my relationship with Tim I was told that I was too young to be in love (started going out at sixteen, broke up at eighteen,) but I did love him. I don't know, I've never believed in the concept of "the one", or a "soulmate"; I think people usually use that as an excuse, either as a reason why they don't try and make it work in a relationship or to cover up the fact that there's really nothing there. I think it's too easy to go "Oh, he wasn't the one" just because he didn't serenade you from the rooftops or whatever. It doesn't work like that. I know it sounds pessimistic, but I've always figured that the person you can be together with forever, the person you don't fight with, is the person you're comfortable with and are friends with (as well as still wanting to have sex with them after a while). That's the important thing to me - I've always loved big, dramatic relationships, but I know that I'd never enter into any kind of contract with those people, cause I'm just not comfortable with them.
Tired and lonely and have an essay to finish =(
^ Agree.
There's comfortable and there's taking for granted. And you should never be with someone you take for granted or vice versa.
When I'm in a relationship I just give the guy the option "If it's that big a problem for you, don't be with me." It's a little bit harder to explain it when it's a one-off thing though - you don't want to say beforehand but depending on the guy, it can really kill the mood if he goes to take your bra off and you stop him.
It's so annoying, isn't it? Cause ideally, that's the best part of the relationship, when you get comfortable. I don't really like the beginning, I just get so panicky and paranoid. I like it when you can settle and just be two normal people. One of my favourite things is just being with my boyfriend but not doing stuff together - like when Andy comes over and he plays XBox and I do work, or when he does work and I read. It's great because you're not trying to impress each other any more. However, sometimes it can backfire and being comfortable turns into being lazy. I don't expect a guy to try and impress me all the time, but there's stuff I think is necessary in a relationship. For me, regular sex is a big thing. I know it's shallow, but I hate when you start off a relationship having sex all the time, then after a month it just dwindles off, like you don't find each other attractive any more, you just have to because you can't have anyone else. Luckily (barring the last three weeks where I haven't seen him) me and Andy do not have that problem yet =P
Anyway, relationships are normally a lot more panic than they're worth. If he's not over his ex, after two years with you, you can't expect him to suddenly be over her. The fact that he's just started wearing the necklace again probably means he's started thinking about her again.
I'm so sorry Michelle, I wish there was something I could do *hugs*
I think it's disgusting that they still put down dogs for doing what's in their nature, instead of giving them a second chance. If someone punched me, I wouldn't get them put down over it. I guess it's just easy for some people to think of them as just peoples' sidekicks or whatever. Not as actual living beings, with emotions and problems.
I've never taken off my bra in front of a guy, I can't get up the guts to do it. Luckily my boyfriend is really nice about it - he didn't even ask why for a really long time, then when he did I just said that I'm insecure and don't really want to talk about it and he was perfectly fine =) my last boyfriend kept yelling at me about it.
Yeah I can't do anything, no buses are running, my parents don't want to drive, and I live miles away from anyone...I really hate being stuck in the house.
As a general rule: never date a guy who is essentially waiting for you to agree to go out with him before he breaks up with his girlfriend. If he didn't want to be with her, he'd already have broken up with her, and then asked you in the decent way if you'd like to be with him. People who line up their next partner usually ALWAYS do that; my friend Lauren found that out when she went out with a guy who made her promise to go out with him if he broke up with his previous girlfriend. Then when he broke up with Lauren, he was immediately with another girl - what a surprise. Then Lauren gets a text saying he might break up with Kayleigh if she'll give him another chance. It's just people that don't want to be alone.
To be honest, if this is a really good friend of yours, you should probably tell her what he's been doing, because she doesn't deserve it.
And like everyone else has said with the other boys, if they're good friends they won't hate you for not dating them, but going near any of them is going to end up hurting all of them.