Knittin' Kitten
And another one.
Me and Andy have been made fun of before by his housemates for having loud sex, and we know it bothers people but it's like, what can we do except try and be quiet, and even when we do they can still hear because the walls are paper thin in that house. And normally it's just funny, because they know we're not doing it to be annoying, and we don't in the middle of the night or anything. But yesterday they were just being really harsh about it. Well, on Wednesday me and Andy had sex, and it wasn't that loud, but when we came out of his room we realised his housemate had gone into the front room while we were at it, so he would have heard. Then yesterday we didn't know anyone was in the house, and it was like 5 in the afternoon! So not a big deal. But when I went to check my emails after I see that one of his housemates had posted on Facebook that we were making loads of noise and tagged me in the post. Then she and Dani (the housemate from the day before) started putting up all this stuff about rough sex and that, and I thought it was funny at first but then Steph started going "Oh god I'm so embarrassed for her, I'd kill myself if it was me!" and it's like the online equivalent of standing in front of someone and talking about them when you know they can hear. It's just fucking rude.
I got really upset about it, and got even worse when I saw that Dani had posted something as well, and that this girl who's in love with Andy had started commenting - I am DEFINITELY not comfortable with her knowing about my sex life. Steph's said sorry now because Andy went and talked with her, but it's like...sometimes saying sorry doesn't make it all better. She was really malicious. And in her sorry email, she just said that I should only have loud sex when everyone's out of the house but it's like...there are six people living there, over four floors, it's impossible to find a time when everyone's out and even so, I can't go round knocking on all the doors to check the coast is clear. Sex doesn't work. So now I'm in this shitty situation where I really don't want to have sex because I've been made to feel insecure about it, but I know Andy's going to want to, but I can never say no to guys because of various hang-ups I have...so basically, they've ruined my sex life, at least for the forseeable future. So I feel like shit but can't do anything about it.
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I hate that this is the thread I keep going to.
I'm just getting SO fed up with my friend Lauren being so self-destructive. Especially because she knows EXACTLY what she's doing, and that it's stupid, but you just can't change her mind! My friend Lizzie's boyfriend has a friend called Dave, who's a very good-looking and very self-assured punk guy. The first time he came to York to visit, Lauren tried to sleep with him but he was trying to sleep with me. After three days I went home and he had to stay at Lauren's, so he just slept with her. He didn't use a condom and she was wasted, and although she came out clean he has spread lots of diseases before, so she had to go through loads of tests and stuff. So we didn't want to see him for a while - but then we all kinda got over it, and he came up for her birthday party a few weeks ago. They obviously slept together a few nights in a row, and then when I'd gone home and talked to her, she was talking about how she thinks she loves him and stuff. This guy cheats on every girl he's ever known (he actually has a girlfriend right now, that Lauren knows about *rolls eyes*) and treats girls like shit. I just don't care enough about him either way, but obviously I don't want Lauren getting hurt, so me and Lizzie talked her down so she wasn't that fussed about him.
In the last week she's gone out, bought DMs, got facial piercings and dyed her hair blue, and I just got a message from her on Facebook saying she's gone to London to see him. And I just...don't have the energy any more. I'm so angry and I don't think she realises how much it hurts me to see her hurting herself, cause I really care about my friends. I've just h enough of her doing stupid stuff even though she knows it's stupid! She's texting me now and telling me that she's had loads of stress at home, and I know that but she could have come to see me and I would have looked after her for a few days, I'm meant to be her best friend but instead she runs to that prick, who lives in a really rough council estate and is never to be trusted anyway! She said she's gonna text me every now and then to let me know she's okay and of course I want her to because I still care but I'm so fucking angry at her for putting me in this position! I look after her so much anyway, I don't deserve this! So now I'm just sat on my bed, crying and wanting to punch something. God I'm looking forward to boxing when I get back; she's always my partner. I guess this is what it feels like to be a parent =(
Thanks Heather =) and I didn't think it was inappropriate, it gave me a laugh haha!
Yeah I mean I do think the adverts are good, because if you can you really should...although I don't think the guilt trip angle is necessarily the right one. It's just hard to see.
Have you already had a baby then? Did you get anyone saying anything about it? It's just horrible, it's another social pressure that I won't be able to live up to. And it's a personal thing as well - I've always been very pro-breastfeeding in public, and I imagined myself doing it a lot to make a point haha, but now I can't. I mean, I can try, but it's safe to assume at this point that it's not going to happen. I just feel like I won't only be letting my baby down by not giving it what it needs, but that I won't be as close, because breastfeeding is meant to be the real bonding thing for parents and babies.
I hate going to the family planning clinic now =( it's just covered with posters about how breastfeeding is the best thing to do, and babies crying cause their mothers are giving them bottled milk. When I found out that I won't be able to breastfeed it hit me really hard cause I thought it'd make me a bad mother, and everyone calmed me down and said it wouldn't, it's fine if you don't breastfeed, but then I have to sit there with all these posters telling me what an awful parent I'll be if I don't. I almost started crying =(
I'm in Bristol and it's about £30 for just a trim, more if you want it blow dried and coloured and stuff. I largely dye my own hair and I haven't changed my hair style in ages =( so mostly I'm just looking at an hour and a snip of the ends. I kinda want to change it but oh well.
Oh okay, I'll have to try that, thank you =)
Aargh I think I've got a urine infection or something, I just constantly feel like I need to pee and it's driving me crazy! I was in town for two and a half hours today and went to the toilet like five times.
Edit: I can't even go to the doctors about it because I've been taken off the records by going to uni. So I have to wait over two weeks to deal with it, and it's really inconvenient and stopping me from sleeping.
Sorry Lala, that sounds so disappointing!
I finally heard back from him and it turned out he got really depressed and spent the week drinking and ignoring everyone. I'm glad he's okay but I did have a bit of a go at him for making me worry haha.
Double post!
I think my friend's ignoring me. He deleted his Facebook profile about a week ago but he told me about it. He's been on MSN for like a week but not replying, and just now he's gone offline. He's not answering his phone or replying to texts. But he was on Myspace yesterday, according to his profile. I've tried sending him a message on there, but this is just so unlike him. Normally if he's upset, he'll tell me. It's really strange for him to ignore me. But we're meant to be going to a gig together next month, and I'm counting on him to get the hotel room, or I can't go =(
Oh no you shouldn't feel bad about being upset over your cat! They're still a part of your family, it's stupid to say that they don't count cause they're not human. They're still your friend. I'd be devastated if my cat dies, and I never see her and every time I do she's horrible to me haha, but I'd still cry like a baby if she got taken from me.
Got woken up at ten this morning by people playing music reaaally loudly. I know that's not that early, but for me it is. And I just don't get why it has to be quite THAT loud!
I miss Andy =( he's been in Middlesbrough for two weeks now, and I saw him at the weekend but I ended up crying and now I can't see him for another week and I feel like complete crap for no reason and I just want him here for a cuddle. I miss him so goddamn much, I don't know how I'm gonna manage over the summer.
Jesus, who the hell would do that? I definitely wouldn't have the balls, even if I was horrible enough to do that. I wouldn't even do that in a house I was renting that wasn't the owners, but they knew that was YOUR house that you live in.
Track the bastards down and make them pay!
I'm just complaining because I'm very tired and don't want to do stuff today, just want to go see Andy =(
Last night vaguely made sense; someone stumbled in at about 3:30am, obviously been on a night out, and turned on the music. Annoying but understandable. But sometimes, no one will go in or out of the house for ages, but it'll be turned on loudly at like 2am! I don't know if it's being used to cover up sex, but I can block out sex easier than I can the Black Eyed Peas.
I can hear it really loudly now as well, but luckily I have to be up anyway.