RANDOM RANTS!

tomorrow is monday back to work. the weekend was not good.

tomorrow is monday back to work. the weekend was not good.

boo bad weekend

Ughhh stupid computer. It died/crashed for like the fifth time -_-

I am getting a new one Wednesday, though!

thats good

I hate being loney. I has no friends here and I has no moneys to move to where I have friends. sigh. oh wells. I am stuck at home for a bit. I would really like to move back to Ottawa, because I used to live there when I was 17 to 20 going to uni and really liked it. But I don't see that happening, well I do have one friend but all she wants to do is spend time with her boyfriend and other people just want to go out to the bars, and I don't drink, smoke or do drugs. And in small communities that seems to be the only thing people want to do.

I only have two friends here, one is married with a family so I don't spend much time with her (unless her hub is working away and the kids are out and she is bored but that's a whole n'other story lol) and the other has a new bf and is having major issues (legal) with the ex bf so I don't see her much either. If it wasn't for online friends I'd have to talk to my plants (actually I do that too) lol

I enjoyed talking to my animals

I talk to myself. A lot. In fact I do it so much that I've been known to do it in a friends house w/out realising cos I forgot she was there lol. I also argue with the television, well the people on it obviously=)

of course, but then again they act so stupid don't they.

I hate the winter dry skin I have been getting

I've been trying to track down my first proper boyfriend, the guy I lost my virginity to, for a while now because I was worried he was in prison or dead. Turns out he's blocked me on Facebook so I can't get into contact with him. His best friend accepted me on Facebook and I've sent him messages asking why Dave doesn't want to talk to me but he won't reply. It just makes me feel so crap, I don't know why he'd go out of his way to get me out of his life like that...we haven't talked in years but it's not like we had a fight or anything. I just want to stay friends with the guy I first slept with, you know? I've never regretted that it was him, even though he's such a horrible person, but now I wish it had been someone I could at least be civil with.

i do my hair alot, and recently ive had a kinda mohawk style.
the side of my hair are growing rapidly so i decided to trim it down a bit,
as i did the shaver was on the wrong setting so i shaved it a bit much, ahh i dont
find it that bad but....im kinda worried what people wil say even though i shouldnt >.>

and to knittin'kitten i know what you mean, im sorry that thats happend to you :C

simetimes sweetie, its best to not worry about these things. Maybe he just can't face you

I know, I just miss him =(

MORE MOANING. I've barely seen Andy in days. Last Friday I stayed over his and we had a great night together. On Sunday he came over for four and a half hours, four of which he played Arkham Asylum. Tuesday I helped him out with some filming so we barely talked then. Last night he came over at midnight for an hour (literally came over, had sex, cigarette, left) and today he invited me over to sit around while he does work. None of this I mind, I know he's busy, he has a massive essay due in tomorrow and he's making a film too, it's lots, but I miss him. So on Tuesday I asked if he was doing anything tomorrow (Friday) and he said no he's completely free in the evening, and I said I'd spoil him and cook him dinner and stuff. Went out today and bought all the ingredients, some beer, some popcorn, was gonna rent a movie. Then while I'm over earlier, he asks Adam right in front of me if they can do filming tomorrow night. So now I might get to see him but not till late, and I can't cook him dinner which means I spent a ton of money for nothing. It's not his fault he has work to do...and I know it's only because he's not used to having a girlfriend and having to consider someone else, but it's just a bit annoying.

well you should just tell him how you feel, if not wires could get crossed, mixed signals and all tha.

any way communication is key.

I am feeling very lonely, I have no friends here and am bored, I don't have a job and I sometimes I miss my ex because he was like my best friend. Now I have no one to talk to