RANDOM RANTS!

sigh, I wish I had more friends here in Port aux basques, I feel so lonely at times

I'm meeting Andy's parents tomorrow, and I'm terrified. I thought I had like another month to prepare for this =( apparently they're nice though, so hopefully it'll be okay. But it's at like 12:30 so I'm gonna be really tired from having to get up early!

don't get so worried, it will be fine

Oh I can't cope with parents, I revert back to being a 10 year old lol. I'd never inflict mine on anybody, unless they'd been really bad;>

thats a great form of toture

I dislike driving, I havn't driven a car in over 7 years and today my dad made me drive the new van. The whole way home there was a guy up my ass. Yeah, that made me feel good. But really after living in cities where driving a car wouldn't be worth the wait in rush hour traffic.

So they Idea of driving scares me. I really dislike it, I rather walk and in the last 7 years I have either walk or take bus or the train.

really.. i like driving it relaxes me when im mad haha just turn up my music and cruise but i dont live in a very big city theres alot of back roads you can take here i hate when people drive all close to me if there really in that much of a hurry they can go around! ill drive hella slow just to make them mad lol


anyways here is my rant.. i have to wake up in twenty mins lol i got no sleep at all my mom moved out of her house so were here alone till we find a place to move in the next month or so. my man is at work and this house is creepy! i keep hearin noises lol! and my daughter is sick

I like driving but I don't have a car at the minute, luckily I like the bus also

The one craft shop in town has gone

went out of busness, sucky. There is no craft store here

I don't think I can surrive a year in my home town, not only am I bored, I have been here one month and havn't found a job. I think its time to give up on paying back my student loans, I need a job to have the money to do so.

move to Calgary! plenty of jobs and we could hang out and craft together

I wish, I has no money right now. so kinda need a job here first

why do I have to pee so much, grr

I hate being like this. I know I'm making Andy feel bad and it's not his fault. I just totally can't bear to be alone at all right now. He doesn't have to want to be with me all the time, but I wish he did. My best friend just tried to sleep with me, and she's totally beautiful and I said no because of him, because I'd rather have a cuddle from him than sleep with anyone else. And I don't want to make him feel bad but he said he'd come see me tonight and he isn't going to. And apparently he doesn't sleep well when I'm there which makes me feel like shit, cause I only sleep well when he's next to me. I just need him to look after me so bad. I fucking hate Tim for making me like this.

you will be ok, remember you just started going out, he needs to get comfy with you first. Sometimes it takes a while before couples can sleep well next to each other.

What you need to do, is look after yourself. Learn to cope on your own. I know it may seem harsh, but its the only way to mak yourself feel better