RANDOM RANTS!

Ice cream is good!

UGH! I am fine with doing a lot of chores around the house because it keeps me busy and not sitting around all day, but I really wish that my brother would at least try to help out and take care of his dog.

courtney i hear ya i do all the house work which isn't that bad but i wish my sister would clean some of her daughters messes i mean seriously it sucks cause if the dishes aren't done i get yelled at and it won't chhange even though i now have a job my sister is def the favorite

I know, I get in trouble if I don't finish all my chores, while my brother just sits and watches TV. Like, today, this is what I did.

1. Vacuum my moms room
2. Change the cat litter
3. Do laundry
4. Clean my room
5. Finish mowing (originally my brothers job)
6. Sweep the kitchen

Which isn't really that much, but then when I do that much and sometimes more everyday its just ridiculous. The only thing I didn't do that I usually do is get the dog fresh water, and the only reason I didn't do that is because I yelled at my brother long enough for him to do that.

I just hate that my brother is SO LAZY then expects to get everything he wants, while I'm doing all the work.

But hey, more exercise for me! I'll be skinny earlier than I expected

Definitely less trouble living alone... Disadvantage: less help... >
Have you ever tried to mash a unripe avocado? Well there's a ridiculously tiny rest in the bowl now and my kitchen is surrounded by a shiny light green aura.. and I have to clean it up alone... good for my figure, bad for my mood...

Okay, so I got all the parts that I needed for my sewing machine, put everything in, threaded it, and....the bobbin thread won't raise. :|

GAH

I've tried everything everything I tell you! And it still won't work

My mom is so freakin finicy i want to beat her with a stick!!!!!!!!

omg court me tooooooo

I am in so much pain

I hate my stupid eyes. I'm having so much trouble trying to get correct contact lenses (I've got astigmatism, and my left eye is weaker than my right eye), and everytime I go back to the opticians I see a different optometrist and they seem to tell me different things each time! Grrr. I wish I didn't have to bother with glasses and contacts, but I'm waaay too terrified of the idea of laser eye surgery so I just have to live with it.

Hey why so much pain Michelle?

I have more than 125% sight on my left eye and 70% on my right, I don't need glasses but it's annyoing!

Something else bothering me:
Yesterday was the "first anniversary" of my heart surgery with complications. I didn't even think about it a lot. But my fahter sent me a 4sided letter describing everything into the details!!! I know he meant it well, but he somehow managed it to write the whole letter about how bad he felt those days and how hard it was for him!!
How could he do this?
I can't be angry with him, I know he had the best intentions and by telling me how he had been suffering from it, he somehow shows me what I mean to him, which is good to know for he can't show it well... But anyway. It's just not right!!!

Oh no, my bunny slipped under my bed and is now eating the bed base! He perfectly knows that he isn't allowed to do this but he always tries and when he does, he stamps twice out of frowardness (I yelled at him to get him out when he did it the first time).
All the time when I hear him stamp I know, that he's under my bed...
Bunnies learn very quickly! but they are so stubborn!!

my cat loved doing that, can't find the cat. he is under the box spring sleeping

cats.

me pain, I think pain is normal now, its my joints and sticklers syndrome with ostroarthritis...joy. I would take my meds, but they make me pass out. took one last night and I am still high off it.

plus all the iron I am taking is making me consitapated

That was post 1000
I'm really sorry...
I'd try acupuncture, my sister had good results with her chronic cystitis and could reduce her meds...
I hate meds, I'd probably try everything!
Or maybe neural therapy? My mom did this...
But I don't know if it helped in your situation...
If you have pain all the time and can't take meds, isn't it dangerous that the pain becomes chronic?

Oufff that's so hard! I don't know what I'd do I can't bear pain!

Irma I think you have a right to be angry. Fair enough your dads' letter was probably well intentioned and his way of expressing how much you mean but its bound to stir up so much memories and emotional stuff that you probably thought you'd put behind you. I'm afraid I don't know what you can do. Maybe have a good cry and get lots of hugs and pamper yourself. Have a good moan too. Not anywhere that will get back to him but feel free to offload a bit here. You sound like your being really reasonable and fair and thinking of others feelings but that can be tough sometimes and every so often I think its okay to have a bit of a vent.
Michelle I totally understand the side affects issue (i.e. constipation) - its horrible and until you experience it for any period of time its really hard to explain (and pretty embarrassing). I've been having a smoothie a day with my lunch and trying to increase my liquid consumption and syrup of figs is good too (but don't overdo it). Sometimes it gets me down and makes me cry and I feel so ashamed off it and don't think my psychiatrist thinks 'in the grand scheme of things' I should be moaning but I worry that over the long term its doing me harm.

OMG so iwas in at hot topic on my lunch break arguing music and the girl at the register was like i would never check out anything withe core in it and i was trying to explain that it was created before any other core and she thought they were imature bands and its like no they just have fun i mean sure they pick on some kids but its a joke and well don't read to far into i mean most the bands have proffesional careers like pstchologits and such ...... dumbass

its true, alot of bands have other careers, like teachers, lawers n such