RANDOM RANTS!

Somedays I wish I could just turn off all my emotions......

I just plain get frustrated with life...

I know what you mean KT :/

And somehow I ALWAYS find a way to make myself feel guilty. Talking to my mom doesn't help, and we need to be careful with money, which makes me feel doubly bad about asking to go see a therapist.

I second KT, I wish I could just turn off all my emotions.

does your school have a therapist

No, our school is too small for that. We just have a school nurse.

We do have a counselor (which is possibly the same thing) but I'm a little wary. I've never really liked Mrs. Davis, but I probably should go to see her first.

well, if you are uncomfertable...you could ask a teacher if they know any others

Yeah, I actually just asked my mom and she said money isn't a problem, our insurance covers stuff like therapy.

I'm going to go after we get back from NY

thats great news.

I am in pain tonight, its the weather and from all the stuff from work today. Dam sticklers

my whole body aches when i move from those dogs pulling and me constantly stopping and starting, trying to make them walk on loose leads/leashes and nearly being dragged off by them a few times! but i do love this walking thing and it only hurts when i get up and move around where as earlier my arms and thighs ached none stop even if i was still!

on the subject I took out dog walkers insurance and it works out at something incredibly cheap 1.25 a week, so £65 for a year. BUT the excess is £250, so if something happens which i hope it doesnt i have to pay the first £250 of whatever costs an accident to dog or third party incurs! lots of insurers do this but it's so unfair!

and also i wrote vaguley about this in random but oh my god the job centre is the most depressing place ever with the stupidest system ever! They made me go home and go back an hour later but I couldn't because I was stuck in traffic for half an hour, so i phoned and rearranged for today and the thing i needed to sort out took 5 mins today. I'm still attached by a chain to that place even when I have a job! (of course i told them about my job). I hate it hate it i want my independence back.

I hate stickers syndrom. I hate the pain and tiredness I get

aaaw poor michelle *makes you a cup of tea*

Why can I never be happy? the stress of walking 3 bad dogs on lead, the responsibilty of it is too much and it's only been a week. And they don't seem to be getting better.

oh sweetie, I feel the same way. Its like everythings goes right and then something happens. And the world crumbles

I made a sale on etsy today, the first since I relisted my shop but... to counter that...
*we recently got our first family dog, and though she's a total sweetie and extremely affectionate, she insists on crapping in the house, even though we make sure she goes outside. It's like she saves it up.

yesterday, an old friend of mine who happens to be male im'd, thinking he'd get my husband. when I told him it was me, he said "really? Now I know it's you I'll im more often!" and though I was like "erk.." at that, we talked for a while after that, just catching up and linking stuff. It was nice to have someone to talk to, even if he is somewhat of a weird person who my husband isn't comfortable with. I cleared my im history when I got off, knowing my husband to be incurably suspicious and jealous. However, what I didn't realize was that he had disabled that option, specifically because he is completely freakin crazy and wants to "catch me in the act", which he's convinced will somehow happen. Again, because he's freaking nuts. Last night he came home from work and wished for some beer, so I, like some kind of fairy freaking godmother, flitted out and got him some. When I came back, he confronted me with the convo, taking jokes I had made and twisting them in his favor, making it sound like I had been completely unfaithful to him by talking to someone I've known since I was about 8. So freaking controlling. I am SO sick of it. He wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the night, and I didn't talk to him either because I am SO fed up with his freaking psychosis. This morning, I got up, and somehow, mysteriously, he had cleaned the kitchen - swept, done dishes, cleaned the counter - and this man DOESN'T clean. Ever. He does no chores. None. So.... I can't help, considering the fact he's still not talking to me, feeling that this was more of a guilt trip action to make me feel like the most useless wife in the world, one who not only cheats on her husband, but makes said husband clean, too.

Soooo many times I've been in this forum and written a rant about him that just sounded so ridiculously bad that I just wrote and deleted. I often wonder if I'm delusional. Is he really as nuts as I feel like he is, or is he the one that's right? grrrr. ::so pissed off:: lol I think we need a marriage counselor.

hmm, I should post here more often. That feels a little better.

it does, dosen't it.

I want to know what is with all these new people joining and then complaining that we don't meet their standards. Its a site to share ideas and projects. So what if they posted a pic of a cartoon, its their project, its ok. Pen and paper are craft. Paintings are creative, if they baked a cake and didn't post a how too, its ok. Ask them, stop complaining.

AND STOP TELLING PEOPLE that their stuff isn't craft, when YOU don't have any projects posted at all. ITS RUDE!

hear, hear! ::glares at rude people::