depression

Thanks! I always was horrible in communication and writing is even more prone to misunderstandings... but I'm obviously practicising...

well thats great!!! Praticse makes perfect

I've had a week of feeling pretty close to well \o/ Long may it last

I had a week of up and down

i used to suffer form that too expecially anxiety ,,,,but then i realized it was all over nothing i just took a step back and took a look at my self i mean really looked and realized i was worried for nothign, i know it may not be that simple and i dont knw the intricate details of your life. im just sharing my story and hopethat you take it as a litte reasurrance that what youre going though is all in your head
im 20 years old and i have big dreams and i didnt need my internal thought and wild imagination contoling things and making me think things about me that may not be true.

sigh, social anxiety acting up, my ADD is acting up, feeling worthless again. Social constraights again, I am 28 with only a part time job, no career. I am sick, by my doctor's don't know what is wrong. I can't afford school...I need to upgrade skills...but what to do. Everyone around me has completed school and uni, they are nurses, teachers, doctors and I have nothing. Its hard for me to go to school with the ADD, I just can't sit there long enough, plus no money. But what happens if I do something, then can't find a job???

I am off work because I got hurt on the job and am thinking, I really need to find something else. But what to do?

starting to feel low again

Sorry Michelle to hear that things aren't good at the mo. I've been feeling really low today which is really annoying as I've had about 6 good weeks, which is the longest I've felt normal for about 2 years. I have noticed though that I have coped with it better than I used to. I've been having CBT and thats been really helpful and it hasn't spiralled in the way it normally does. I also rested instead of running round like a blue arsed fly trying to distract myself. I think that did me some good as I was able to cook dinner (only chips and pizza).
Michelle your train of thought sounds like how mine goes. I suspect your mood has probably gone down as you've had some really shitty stuff happening recently with your physical health and a miscarriage so maybe you could try to think of it as your head telling you it needs time out to heal itself again. You've also got wedding stuff to plan which although its amazing and happy stuff, its also really tiring and full on. That could be wearing you out. One of the things I'm trying to remind myself is that depression is an illness not a personality flaw - it sounds obvious but I've lost count of the number of times I start of feeling low and end up beating myself up for everything crap thats happening or not happening and feel like such a waste of space and so worthless. It sounds like you go a little bit down that route too. Just try and remember that we all think the world of you here so lean on us if you need to. x

thanks so much arty, I find now that sewing calms me down, I find it relaxing.

but yes, I feel like I beat myself up over the smallest things, I know I shouldn't. But I do. :S

I just got diagnosed with depression and anxiety. My mom also thinks i have ADHD but she thinks I have everything, including schizophrenia.
I just get really irritated, and miserable, but unable to sleep it off like I normally would. Also, stress from school plays a big part in it too I think. Also, I feel really unmotivated to do anything, I simply don't care anymore. As a result of this, I've lost quite a few friends, and my grades have dropped a bit. And I quit taking my "happy pills" because they don't make me happy, I can't feel anything. Which is almost worse than just feeling miserable.
Anyone else have frequent panic attacks?

I have ADHA and depression and anxiety comes right with it, I take mood enhancers and I have calmed down alot.

and yes, stress is horrid on us, thats a cause of panic for me

I really don't believe in ADHD anymore... Such a weird diagnosis... I mean i don't want to offend anyone, and I don't try to say that the symptoms don't exist, but all my patients with "ADHD" have enormous personal problems and stress and so one... I think "ADHD" is just another symptom of all these other problems... And most of the thime I think, if that person would not react in exactly that way, it'd be even worse!
I mean, sometimes you just have to get crazy to survive... Thats the way I feel sometimes... And it makes me feel a lot more normal! At least more normal than all these other "mentally healthy" people you see every day, with their dead eyes. My father is a little bit like that. He's allways "happy" and I wouldn't have any problems either, if I'd live like him. He doesn't even realize that my sister starts to hate him. Or well- he does realize, but he just doesn't care... Sometimes I think, I'd like him more if he were depressed or if he'd be able to show any normal reaction to problems... (hell- I'd wish him some panic attacks...) What a weird thought...

My mother had so many panic attacks when I was a child, and now my sister is starting with it... (stress with my father, her boyfriend... ) probably stress is one of the main keys to it all. And the motivation to do the things you have to do, and the challenge to do them with joy...

I think stress is a big part of it, I think rhe ADHD is an umbrella of different disorders under one

Like probably depression, eating disorders, Anxiety disorders, borderline disorder, mutism, PTSD, sometimes i think these are just the symptoms of one big mental disorder, everybody's suffering from in one or the other way... isn't this sad?

it is and most people ignore it, and they shouldn't. Getting treatment and being aware of what causes it is a step towards better health

Actually this makes me think of how strange it is, that all these disorders have different medications. And I know that a lot of these medications are controversial. Two weeks ago I heard a speech of a famous researcher and he doesn't believe in the serotonine-thing xyz-hypotheses-thing from depression, and he believes that the whole depression medication is nonsense...
That's frightening. But I wouldn't be that surprised acutally. I hope I'll never get into a situation where i have to take such meds. I had enough strange meds to take, they all made me feel strange.
One could do so much without meds, with a little more understanding and cooperation to reduce stress...