depression

waaaahhh Dis... To me it´s just the same...
I´m exactly like that.
I always thought that´s a little bit the way alice in wonderland talk.
She always berate her self when she is lack of self-confidence...

I always loved the way she handled all her Problems in a little confuse way.. I´m really just like that...

^^
"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?" ~Alice in wonderland,Lewis Carroll

I take citleopram

I think I just don't like the numb feeling. I want to feel happy, but not sad all the time. Depression just kinda eats at your life, tears up relationships. Sigh.

I really want to be happy.

I am seeing a teraphist, I hope it will be happy

If your meds dont work you should try another kind.
The problem with anti depressants is that theyre kinda hit or miss. The doctor doesnt know which is going to work for you really. Its kinda a guessing game.

How's it going with the therapist, Michelle?

Depression sucks ass and playing the shuffling meds game kinda stinks, too! At least there are meds to help, even if only for a little while.

My dad killed himself cuz of depression and I vowed I would never do such a selfish thing to my family!


Love,

I am on a waiting list to see one, hopefully in Feb. Its really hard, because I need to find a job-then keep it. I find my relationship is hard to deal with sometimes, because he doesn't seem to realize that even though I don't want to go to the crowded pub-it doesn't mean I want to be alone.

I get very depressed when I am by my self, well now I know I am bi polar, its just hard. I want to be stable, to be happy.

I used to be seriously depressed about a year ago. Luckily we have free health care here, so I got to see a therapist... but I'm afraid that the depression will come back, and sometimes I do have some really anxious periods. 'pecially when it gets darker on the winter.

Also relationships and such make me depressed, 'cause I have only one friend whom I can see almost every day, and it's kinda stressing when I'm the kind of person who really needs people around.

Dis's method sounds so weird, I like it. :>
I always try to get over my depressed moments by listening to music I like and singing along. I love to sing.

also I think some of it is in our minds, when I've had a bad day and I'm in a bad mood and tired I'm like 'Well that's just typical, just my life, just my luck I might as well die!' (I'm not depressed now, but it's hard to be happy)

There was this programme I watched about therapy being better then drugs and this doctor told this depressed woman to write down all her acheivments, but she couldn't think of anything. Then when she saw him again it turned out she could speak about 5 languages and rescued a load of people in the holocaust! I may have said this somewhere, but it helps to focus on the good.

I really hate this depression. My life feels so hard right now. I need to find a job and I feel like its harming my relationship

It's never easy is it? I've been on pills to help me for the last 6 months, this is the first time I've given into it. I normally can dig myself out of whatever dark little sad hole that I end up in.

I totally lashed out at my boyfriend and realized hurting others didn't make me feel any better. It takes a few weeks sometimes a few months before the meds will bring your head back round.

Thing about life though... you got to remember.. even when you're not depressed, it never feels like it gets any easier.. it just lays off for a bit sometimes.

Walking and exercise REALLY help. My mother is going to be on medication for the rest of her life for depression, she's been checked into the hospital and all that jazz. She took up marathon running a few years back, when shes not running regularly you can tell.

hard bit is off course, when you're depressed, it's even harder to get off your ass and head out for a run or the gym.

Have you looked into alternative methods like St.Johns Wort?

I know, I am self harming and I want to hurt other people

no, I havn't. but I will.

Dis gave you some good advice.
The burden of depression is heavy and it doesn't have handles.
I’m hoping you read this because it hurts my brain to think and this took lots of thought. I am 51 and I’ve been on Prozac for at least 5 years. It did make me numb at first but now I actually do feel happy sometimes.
The advice to myself that I have to follow every day:
•Don’t take self too seriously...
•Bad days are unavoidable – try to take it in stride
•Think small – take one step at a time
•Get out of the house
•Speak up but be appropriate– be tough but kind– because swallowing frustration turns into depression
•Marriage (relationship) isn’t utopia
•Exit my comfort zone
•Remember that famous beauties are not immune to depression – Britney and Heather Locklear
•If I can’t love my body; think of what it would be like to be in a wheelchair; no legs, etc.; avoid the scale altogether -- and remember that Food is NOT the "F" word!!!!
•Plastic surgery is excruciatingly painful
•Network, blog, read, write, laugh, mock, parody, satire, rag, roar
•Listen to music that gets the blood flowing – Gwen Stefani, Demi Lovato, B-52s
•Don’t take the world too seriously...
•Care about politics and issues of substance
•Choose battles
•Donate time or money to good causes
•Tune-In: Remain focused; do not anesthetize myself with too much TV watching.

Nice input and post Susan.

I'm going to come off meds I think in a few months, I'm going to take up a new hobbie.. hula hooping.

that does seem like a good hobbie.

I know, it gets hard. I am out of work, looking for a job now. But I have a great boyfriend, and good friends. It gets overwellming, but I got you guys

Oh god, not having a job will not help. It makes you feel trapped!