Through an Email

To Ginger.



I wish you knew the reason why I haven’t call you for a long time.

It’s impossible to be with you anymore. Not only my mom stopped me to go back to you crying but also my family told me to break off if I go.

And here is more. Do you remember when we walked around the dorm together and talked about why I don’t ask to merry with you.



Yes because I don’t want to marry with you which already discussed. If I wanted to get marry with you then I would have already asked.

And I would have promised to be together before I left as you said. But I reached the point that I could not go along with you anymore.

I cannot tolerate you.



That’s why I didn’t want to talk about it the rest of the time when together and also on the way to go to the airport.

I really appreciate everything what you’ve done for me for a year and you love me so much. No one won’t love me like you as you said.

That’s true. But even so I would chose to be alone, by myself. Please leave me alone.



Your love for me is too much. I could not tolerate. You tried to control me too much. You are too much to me.

Hence my love for you is no longer exist inside me. I tried to pretend I loved you for a long time since you told me that you are going to die without my love or such things.

That was scary to me.

I realized you won’t let me go and you strongly refused to go back to Kingsville so I decide to have you a chance to start your own life in wherever you want to live.



So that reason I paid a lot of money to help you. Which my family needed. But you did good things to me so I didn’t mind to buy a car, give a place to live for you and enough to start your life again.

So you should take them all while thank to God.



Yes, you may say this is not fair to you. I simulated the life together so many times. But I could not imagine the life together. How come I have to tolerate life to be suffered.

I even reached the point to get divorced sooner or later if we got married. Who wants to take a risk for such a life. Besides you are not suitable for me as my wife. We are very different.

Please forget me and have a happy life. I think you can do that.



I’m so sorry for you and your family. Honestly all I have done for you is from my feeling that’s sorry for you, not really from love. Especially I want to say sorry for your mom.

But I wish she understood my situation. And I want her to thank me for settling down your location.



Bottom line I won’t be able to go back no matter how much you pray.

I am tired your love. I don’t think I can live with somebody who I don’t like.



You always think everything is convenient interpretation for you.

But not anymore. Here is my feeling and thought.



I didn’t want to be a jerk but I did.

I’m sorry. Bye.



Iri