confessions!

about a year ago, my best friend and I we liked each other and I think we had something special, but out of nowhere I decided I don't want a relationship with him, and I told him I don't wanted to have a boyfriend, and then I met his friend and I fell in love with him.
He (my ex bestfriend) stopped talking me and he got mad with his friend.
and the worst part was I didn't feel any guilt, in fact... I didn't care.

I try not to do anything bad, but once, me and my friends took this girls lock for her gym locker and opened up a ceiling tile, and threw it up there. Actually, we did that twice. And each time she had to pay the school to get a new lock. Oh, and this other girl in our class has a lock where you put a word in instead of a number combination, and we know the combination, and on occasion, (Okay, LOTS of occasions) we open it up and freak her out.

In Biology we filled the plastic gloves we were using for a dissection with water and put them in a nasty boy's bag they burst all over his books!! It wasn't my idea but I did make sure the coast was clear while my friends did it!

I tried to get on a bus using a pass that wasn't for that bus lol the driver actually looked at it so I pretended to be all aloof, said sorry and got on the right bus lol

oh jeez... I'd tell it all but I believe that would be exceeding the bandwidth uhm.... When I was little, I got sick a lot because I had constant ear infection, and tonsilitis [which just RECENTLY got fixed]. Sometimes I used to fake it [obviously, because I was a kid in Jr. High! lol]. Soon my mom caught on, and then when I was genuinly sick, she thought I was faking it. So now when I get sick [like I have been for the past three days], I use my special make-up skills to look horrible. Nothing over the top, but I darken my dark circles, give myself a fever [but an "under the skin one... that ones that look real] with lipstick rubbed deeply in, and then half-sheer conselor [I can't spell well at the moment]. Then I do all the things OPPOSITE of the "tricks to shine" type of thing. Instead of a highlight under the brow, I darken it. Instead of a highlip above the lip and a hue on the lip, I darken above my lip and put foundation on my lips [but rub it in really good so its hard to tell your lips arn't as red as they should be]. I put dark eyeshadow on my lower lids, but blend it in really well so they just look a tiny bit sunken it, and voila. if I had figured this out when I was younger, I would do it just to get out of school, but now i only do it when I really am sick. I still consider it bad though.

Goose, because of your posts, i had a dream that i had sex with 2 girls in a closet. i am straight. i guess this means that i am a closeted bisexual?!?!

The worst thing I remember doing was lying about taking my meds when I was a kid. It was a nasty syrup, and I couldn't stand it, so sometimes I would act like I took it and then go spit it out. I always remember being so sad when I saw people being mean and playing tricks on the kids at school, mostly because it was usually me they were tormenting. Being a genuinely nice person just makes people hate you... that is what I've learned. I'm still genuinely nice, but now I'm cynical. People have to earn my niceness. But it's still a flaw... someone could punch me in the face and I'd just look at them and walk away with no hatred or confusion at all. I just expect that people hate me and want to hurt me.

yeh that's why I got picked on, because I was nice and it was easy. I'm still as nice, even if I don't like someone or didn't want to talk to them I'd still say hello. I was always really helpful at work and it didn't feel false, I genuinly wanted that old lady to find incontinence pants! I go too quiet around people I don't feel comfortable with though, but if they don't talk to me or anything then I don't care because it's them that isn't talking to me either and they'll never know my friendship!! I don't think anyone like that doesn't like me, they just don't realise I'm there! I still don't care most of the time other peolpe are shit. /rant!

anyways...I used to pretend I was ill at school, from about year 4? maybe earlier, so i was about 7, my mum knew but would give in lol but because i was pretending to be ill, i tried not to eat too much, so then would end up getting run down and being ill! and then year 10 and 11 I didn't even lie, I just said 'im not going' or screamed it rather. So sometimes I'd get the bus, get off near school, get another bus and go the other way by bus back home, let myself in, then go hide somewhere around the time my mum would be coming home from work, then go back when the school bus went past! Or sometimes I'd just go home and not bother hiding lol

I gossip too much....

i'm nice to some people- depends on who it is! ;)

Hm well my last boyfriend i left state and never broke up with him because after i got to kno him he disgusted me me he was homophobic and my grandpa's gay, rascist and my cousins are spanish and i found all this out on aur senior trip to chicago.

And junior year in school i got kicked out for being in the wrong district and it caused me to be come so depressed i wold skip more than i went i didn't hide or anything just refused to go and call myself in sick it was such a horrible year all the kids were so mean to me and i hated dealing with them funny thing was i passed all my classes with A's and did better than most my peers which was more reason not to go cause i could pass at home

oh yeh it got to the point where most of the time I just wouldn't go, and my mum knew since she would try to force me out the door. I did pretty well too considering how much I missed I only failed the things I was crap at (maths and german) although technically I didn't fail I just got lower than a C.

school was rough for e as well, I was always sick

maybe thats why we do so well on here i find it easier to talk online than in person i hate meeting people and being around a lot of people

I hate meeting new people and large crowds