About

before i was a mum – i had never been puked on, poohed on, chewed on, peed on. i had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. i slept all night.
before i was a mum – i had never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give injections. i never looked into teary eyes and cried. i never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. i never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
before i was a mum i never held a sleeping baby just because i didn’t want to put it down. i never felt my heart break into a million pieces when i couldn’t stop the hurt. i never knew anything so small could affect my life so much. i never knew that i could love someone so much. i never knew i would love being a mum.
before i was a mum – i didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. i didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. i didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child. i didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
before i was a mum – i had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. i had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a mum.
i didn’t know i was capable of feeling so much before i was a mum.