About

Whoa....it's been a while since I've updated the "About You" section, around 4 years as you can see below! Today (10/9/15) and my life is a lot different! I was in a horrible accident, walked away physically okay (even after they air lifted me to Trauma in PA!) but the pain meds sent me in a downward spiral, I ended up in CARS Residential for 10 months and 10 days, I was in and out of rehab once or twice after that. I finally decided to apply for a spot in the Lakeview Program, a mental health facility that provides housing and assistance with your mental health. I started out in a 3 bedroom, where I eventually met Sameh who I adore. We now live across the hall from one another both of us in our own apartment!

I'm getting use to being alone, sober and trying not to isolate. Luckily I completed Tompkins County Drug and Alcohol program and thanks to Lakeview I found a Suboxone doctor. So staying sober from opiates has been a lot easier. I just need to not isolate...

In other news, my mom's house burnt down and her and my little brother lost EVERYTHING, so they are struggling. However, the community was amazing and helpful. Strangers, friends everyone! It was a nice feeling.

I think that about sums it up. My music and all that is the same!

** I recently admitted myself into rehab Conifer Park for some much needed detox & all that jazz. I (as some of you may or may not know) was not just addicted to but madly in love with opiates & would do whatever it took to get them. When I DIDNT have them I didnt see the point in living. So.....rock bottom was too close for comfort.
I arrived at Conifer 11/29/2011 & was in detox for 2 weeks before moving on to Rehab. I stayed through Xmas & New Years & returned home 1/9/2012. Today (1/24/12) I am 56 days clean & still in a state of shock & disbelief. For those who helped, tried to help, showed support & all that good stuff THANK YOU. Mom, you above all. I love you. Ok enough of that sappy shit (*wink*wink*) <3

I am now attending out patient at CARS in Ithaca, 4 hours a day 5 days a week. Sounds more painful than it is. Looking forward to moving on & living a normal existance (well...normal for me anyways....)


I am a 29 years old jack of many trades (yeah...29, dont believe me? try proving otherwise!) that has done everything from cosmetology (beauty school drop out!), manager (walmart, spencers gifts, starbucks) telecommunications & Cake Decorator. I love new wave 80's and gothy music,modeling & art (sketch, painting, crochet etc.)

Whats there to say, I am a bit goth, I love dreads, I love to dance & spend way too much time on my eyebrows. I am a Gemini & I act like it! I can be the nicest girl in the world & then switch into a mean nasty sarcastic cunt monster that wants nothing more than to humiliate you. =) with no remorse. I am easy to get along with as long as I like you. thanks to my spastic goofy attitude that makes some laugh & some cringe or both I am usually fun (perhaps amusing is a better term) company to have. I have done everything from wait tables, QA Lab tech for an OJ factory, work with elderly alzehimers and dementia sufferers, retail managers for Walmart, Spencers and Starbucks. I have also worked as a receptionist in a liberal hippy mediation office that tried keeping legal issues out of courts and settled one on one. I went to school for cosmetology....hated it. I like working with make up but it seems like theres no call for that kind of work so I am a BEAUTY SCHOOL DROP OUT! heehee. I worked as a photographer (so so job. I like being on the model side of the camera far bette than the photographer side) for a few years and then transfered to work as a Cake Decorator where my REAL passion is! I would do ANYTHING to be working as a decorator again (leave it to the publix managment team to crush a girls dreams!) If I had a soul to sell I would (traded it for a VNV Nation cd in High School....) gladly do so. Being unemployed is no fun.........