Arty Kitkat
I'd say paint the bags. The pattern looks cool but I would stick with one colour and something that's in a similar tone rather than contrasting (if that makes sense). - like you did with the train. I also thing by painting the pattern on the bags I think it would bring all the elements together. I hope that makes sense, I'm not very good at fashion language.
Posts by Arty Kitkat
Reason for your screen name: My name is Kat and my friend Gayle calls me Kitkat and ever since she had her son she has been calling me Auntie Kitkat. I son now calls me it too which is too cute for words 
Name: Kat
Home country: England
Home town From Norwich but now live in St Albans
Favorites~
color: Green (any shade) and Bright Pink
animal: Bats, Cats & Butterflies
song: Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley, Crowds by Bauhaus, October Swimmers by JJ72
place to hang out in your area: Watercress Gardens
What's cool about your hometown/locale? Both Norwich and St Albans are Roman and have their own Roman wall in tact. I like the market on Wednesdays and Saturdays and all the nice coffee shops
What do you do to pamper/spoil/indulge yourself: Have a deep, hot bath and turn the lights off and have a couple of candle burning and just sink down till I'm nearly all submerged and just soak away. I also love getting massages but I can only afford one a month but that always leaves me feeling good. I also love naps - theres nothing like catching a few z's mid afternoon I also love icecream, especially carte dores cinnamon waffle and caramel flavour 
Hows everyone getting on? Have you been able to pick a t-shirt to send?
I use Tiger Balm as well as pills. I had a killer of a migraine monday though so I sympathise. Thankfully I don't get them very often. Also you could try keeping a food diary, I had a friend who found hers were triggered by chocolate Not nice to give up chocolate but given the choice between chocolate and migraine theres no choice!
What an ignorant and unhelpful thing to say I'm really sorry you were told that. That sounds like it came from someone of the 'old school, stiff upper lip, mustn't let the side down' brigade. Thats such an outdated and, more importantly, wrong way to view depression. Its a REAL illness. It doesn't need to be triggered by one big thing, it could be lots of things and if you are living with voices and other psychotic symptoms I think you must be extremely brave. I'm not the slightest bit surprised you're depressed. Thats a hell of a lot to deal with. Also depression is really hard and really serious. My guess is it kills more people than Cancer. I don't know if thats true but I bet it more than holds its own. Its also worse, in my opinion, than physical illness because it causes you to doubt yourself and almost seems to destroy you from the inside. It can also prevent you from asking for help.
Please feel reassured that no-one here feels like that.
I'm really sorry to hear this Maybe you need a longer admission and some more intensive treatment or your meds reviewed. Do you have an appointment with your psychiatrist coming up? Also do you get any other support in the community, eg. a psychiatic nurse or social worker? In the UK we also have an Early Interventions Team that work with 14 - 35 year olds who are suffering with psychosis and we also have a Crisis service which can see people daily or even several times a day. Do you have anything like this? You really seem to be struggling which is so sad to hear Although it seems impossible to believe right now you have a lot of things stacked in your favour - you are young and therefore likely to still have the flexibility to learn new strategies, you also seem to have bags of insight (i.e. you have a good level of self awareness) and you are well motivated (i.e you really want to get well).
Also some I say a lot (so sorry if its getting boring) - you have an illness! By this I mean that these symptoms are not personality flaws or failings on your part, they are symptoms that are part of a complicated illness which the doctors treating you haven't yet got a proper handle on. They will though. They just need to find the right combination of meds and support.
Finally a pic of my sweeties from Kira Nearly all gone now
<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/kathakana/4357758586/" title="Sweeties from US by Kathakana, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2720/4357758586_18a8837dcc.jpg" width="500" height="375" alt="Sweeties from US" /></a>
I've been playing around and have a couple worked out and I'm really enjoying this. Where does the idea come from?
Its sounds horrible I hope you are able to find a therapist also. Its also still worth keeping an eye out for a hearing voice group. Although Peer Support groups can sometimes be looked down on as not as good as professional help, they appear to be very affective at maintaining stability. Also you are young (I think you said 19??) so having that opportunity to speak with others who have been through what you have been going through but who have managed to find a way of coming out the other end can give real hope. I run an under 30s group at the daycentre I work at and we recently had a workshop on hearing voices where someone from our hearing voices group came and met with those from our U30s group have psychotic symptoms with their illnesses and there seemed to be this huge sigh of relief from one of the group who is really struggling at the moment. He hadn't really spoke to anyone who had been where he is now and seen them come out the other end. Also it gave the group a chance to offload a bit of the guilt (possibly) around some of the things they had done which they thought may have contributed to their illness, like taking street drugs.
I found this so exceptionally sad when I read about it. I remember watching him interviewed on the Clothes Show years and years ago and thinking how down to earth and unpretentious he was. It feels like such a waste and i feel for his family and friends. Suicide is such a tragic way to loose someone close to you. RIP
I'm sorry Lakesha that it became so bad that you needed to be admitted. Sometimes though that can be the catalyst for getting the help you need. Last April I became extremely low with some slightly psychotic symptoms. I get horrible thoughts which feel like they don't belong to me and feel like premonitions so they can be awful as I believe that these things are inevitable and they are so vivid. They're not like negative thoughts or nightmares, they're very hard to explain but at my worse I believed that at some point in the near future I was dead and I'd killed myself and become petrified of everything in the house. I ended up punching the walls and sitting, crying in the dark chanting some odd expression about feeling the darkness. It was pretty horrible but as a result I ended up being referred to the crisis team and I my place on the waiting list for CBT got moved forward so I got to see someone much sooner. It unfortunately didn't 'fix' the problems but I learnt a lot about myself and have developed better ways to cope with the negative thoughts and haven't had a spell that bad for about 6 months.
I'm really chuffed to see that you also said you're doing better
I use a mooncup and it takes a bit of time to get used to. It was initially uncomfortable but that was because you need to relax when putting it in place, and thats hard to do with something unfamiliar. Also if it was leaking and really painful it may not have been sitting in the right place, it sounds like it may have been a bit low down. I hope this makes sense. I found a good way to get used to using it was to put it in after a bath in the evening, that way you're nice and relaxed (hopefully) and you can try it overnight with out too much embarrassment if it leaks.
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The pink zebra is adorable Good luck with the craft fair
I really felt for you when I read this. When I went to uni I had to leave my two cats behind with my parents. Cats are very sensitive to change too but they do adjust so long as they are getting plenty of love (which they sound like they are getting). One of my cats was so sensitive he used to get really unsettled when I was on school holidays (this was when I lived at home). He used to go really potty, laying on his back at my door and rattling it by sticking his paw under it and then when I'd finally let him in he's be on the bed right by my face purring really loudly. He'd settle down but I think me having lay ins really confused him and he needed to know what was going on.