kiddo
Thanks Irma, KT, and Michelle! Those are all very good suggestions. I'm feeling much better, but it's a daily battle. I will definitely look into to all that has be mentioned here! Thank you guys! You are the best!
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Thanks, Irma and KT. I can't afford therapy right now because I don't have a job or insurance. Things are extremely hard right now and I hate burdening anyone with my troubles. I just couldn't hold it in much longer. I just feel really trapped right now. I know someone I could talk to that would understand where I'm coming from, but he's out of town visiting his buddies and I don't want to ruin his time. He had such a hard time leaving himself b/c of anxiety. If he knew something was wrong he would rush back here to help, but I really want him to have a good time. I feel a little better getting these things out though. Thank you both for listening.
I have super bad anxiety, especially lately. It's so bad it's bordering on agoraphobia. I'm afraid people won't like me or will make fun of me. I know deep down that these feelings aren't valid, but they're still there and they are taking over my life. It's just really lonely being me right now. I realize that people are thinking about their own troubles and not about me, but the anxiety always seems to win. There is medicine I can take, but it makes me really sleepy and I'd rather not sleep all day. It really feels like I'm losing the battle and I don't know what to do.
If he wants to date he WILL make time for you! Don't sit around and wait on him, KT. It sounds like he's really into his friends right now. If I were you, I'd go on about my business and if he's truly interested he'll come to you. A good guy friend let me know that if a guy is interested in you they'll MAKE time for you. "He's Just Not Into You" is a great book to read. I'm not saying he's not into you, it's just a great book to have on hand in questionable guy situations. I've waited on way too many guys and never once was it worth it. They should be waiting on you because you're worth it!
Elin, watch out for the drinking thing because it sounds like a habit. Your BF could be an alcoholic. At the very least he's a binge drinker. In a way he is cheating on you, just with a bottle. Trust me, I've been there more than once . . . And it always ends badly. You're not overreacting in the least!
I had to let him go yesterday. His awful, evil ex-girlfriend posted a wall post on his wall on Facebook about how I was stealing her best friend. I was livid!!! I told him that he may not want to get back with her, but deep down emotionally he's holding on to some false belief that there was anything at all positive about their relationship when there wasn't. I told him that I can't be with him when he's in any way associated with someone like her. She is a terrible person. She took tens of thousands of dollars from him (he's currently paying for her school, too). His only source of income is from disability he gets for depression. How can you take money from someone so vulnerable, especially when they want to go back to school themselves! She cheated on him for 3 years before he found out. He said today that he can't block her from his FB page. I told him that he COULD he just wouldn't. He said yesterday that he told her not to talk to him anymore, but I don't believe it for one second especially since he won't block her on FB. He says that he wants to move on, but he doesn't.
I'm not sure what to do right now. I'm not as angry as I was, but I'm still not ready for a conversation. He got really sick last night and I thought he was going to have to go to the hospital. After I was sure he was okay I just went back to ignoring the "do you want to see me anymore" texts. I'm just kinda numb right now.
He said that he blocked her about two weeks ago, but apparently that was a lie. He deleted his FB account after he found out I was upset, I don't know why. He keeps texting and calling me, but I won't answer. In a few of his texts it sounded as if they've been talking to each other, too! He said that she had said that she doesn't want "their friendship" to come between him and me. What that hell does that mean? Their "friendship." I thought he was avoiding her. At least that's what he told me.
Off topic man rant! I hate liars! I was told by him that he blocked his ex on facebook, but I just logged on and saw a freaking half a page back and forth between them! It was the first thing I saw to beat everything! They could've PM'ed for God's sake! I didn't read it. I was just pissed that he had lied because he blocked her, right? I just saw her little "I'm trying to be sexy" pic about a dozen times in between his pic as they commented back and forth! Man I'm mad!
I did so much pouting about the Alice swap that Heidel send me some goodies in the mail! She is so sweet! I do believe that Miss Tara has a surprise for me as well 
My Alice/Zombie swap with Interstellar/Patty more than paid me back for the Alice swap. Patty sent me such wonderful things as she always does! I just joined Creativemind's ATC swap and I am sooooo excited! I agree that Sug is a great swap leader! She's soooo organized.
Hey you need to go to my blog and enter the Craft it Forward thingy if you have a blog. If not scroll down and enter my giveaway!
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LOL!
How rude!
that is true. that's why i stopped going to church!
I'm supposed to call an ex from about 12 years ago to go out for lunch. I was impressed that he asked me out for lunch and not for drinks. It seems like every guy in Knoxville is a drunk! He's a Marine, or he used to be . . .
I need to start eating better, working out, and stop smoking. I've been eating a lot of fried chicken lately from the local deli. It's so good, but it's gotta be horrible for me!